Wednesday, November 22, 2006

I am moving insha Allah on Saturday from this house to an apartment, but something in my heart is making me very excited about it. I want a fresh start. I want to leave these bad memories behind. I know it's not the house itself, but I had many negative feelings associated with this house because this is where everything from the last year transpired. I am excited to go back to the complex where my husband and I first lived together.

My husband and Lisa have been married one year this past Sunday. They got married on the 19th on November 2005. I didn't know until Dec. 26, 2005. So a year ago at this time my life was a completely different. I was clueless as to what was going on in my life. It's hard to look back, but I never would have thought that I would be here a year later and feel the way that I do. I am always amazed at Allah's plan. I wonder where I will be a year from now? Insha Allah the following year will be better than this one. This past year wasn't all bad if I have to say.....I've learned a lot about myself. I learned a lot about my strengths and my weaknesses. I've learned how much I love my life. I love my family. I love my husband. Most Importantly I love Allah. I love Islam. Allah has put me in this situation for a reason and I plan to benefit others through it. I never thought I'd be here, but I am and I am still breathing. Alhamdulillah!!!

11 comments:

Honorary Arab said...

Subhanallah!

Asalamalaykom Vena,

You have what it takes, girl, to get through this life! I am very in tune with where you're coming from. Thanks for sharing from your big heart. May your move feel like forward. :)

JourneyIntoLight said...

Assalaamu'alaikum,

I've been following your blog and thought I would say hello since I've set up a blogger's account.

I wish you all the best in your move and may this prove to be a wonderful fresh start. You attitude is inspiring. Yes, you have benefited others through your handling of your situation! Jazakallah khairan.

H.O.P.E said...

Assalmu alaikum vena...

There's a saying "Al haraka feeha baraka" (In every move there's a blessing).

Inshallah I'm sure that this change will be kheir for you and your children. Everyone needs a change every once and a while and only Allah knows "al kheir fein".

May Allah give you all you desire.

JamilaLighthouse said...

MashaAllah, you have passed through so much in just one year, may Allah swt reward you for your patience,consideration and perserverance...I didn't realise it was such a short time, you've really got it together so quickly...inshaAllah you will continue to have the strength you have.

Safa said...

"Al haraka feeha baraka".....OH MY!! I hear that almost every day here...LOLOLOL!!!!

Vena....u are amazing....and I know somewhere inside there lives this knot of pain....but step by step...day by day....you are the one who is still in control. I love that about you...masha Allah!

Queenie said...

safa and vena u r both amazing. wish so much that my co wife could be just a teenie weenie bit as understanding as u guys

Hasnah said...

As salaam alaikum
you don't have to post this just wanted to tell you to come to my blog.

Canadian Muslimah said...

Assalaamu alaikum Vena,

Mashaa'Allah, I've been reading through your blog, and I'm astounded.

We don't have a choice in being brought into this world or even being taken out. The only thing we have a choice in is our attitude and ou rbehaviour.

May Allah increase you and grant you the highest Jannah. Ameen.

I've never been married, but I can honestly say that how you handled, what many consider a 'worst case scenario' - reflects the forbearance and husn adh-dhan that Islam emphasizes.

I ask that Allah facilitate your affair and bless you with righteous children.

You've inspired me sister. Jazak Allaahu khayr for that.

- Your sister in Islam

Safa said...

haven't heard from you in awhile...I hope the move went well....

Queenie said...

vena...oh vena....wherefore art thoy sweet vena...we miss u here on blog land

Faith aka Muslim Mommie said...

As-salaamu Alaykum, sweetie. How are you. I'm back now and look forward to hearing from you soon, insha-Allah.